Its not a respect its an awe.

           I shifted to hostel just one day before the college starts and it was a very bad experience of my journey. Before shifting to hostel my relatives, cousins were telling me the hostel life is very much interesting and you will enjoy a lot. You will learn new things, you will become responsible, you will learn how to manage the time and also you will learn how to wash your own cloths. :P Everyone was telling their own experiences, memorable and thrilling movements. they were very much desperate to tell me about hostel life. My dad was living in hostel while he was in school. So he used to tell me about his experiences, his saga and every time i dreamed to live in hostel at once. and my dream came true. But it was very much different than my relatives and cousins' words.
         The hostel was located at the back side of college and it was very close to college. Actually it wasn't hostel it was a residential building which was given to college to use as a hostel. because 4-5 years ago someone had attempted suicide and after that some horrible things started happening so all the resident left. That hostel was really looking horrible, there were cracks on the wall, no colour on the wall. The glass of the windows were broken. It was the condition of the hostel but it was okay for me because i didn't want to live there for lifelong, it was just a case of 3 years. My room was at first floor among 7 floors. At the ground floor there was a common room with a TV. and also there was a room of hostel controller and the right side there was a mess. So it was a structure of hostel. In my room already 4 seniors were staying. I will introduce you with them, just wait.
        I was only junior in that entire hostel so i was just feeling awkward because no one was with me. Everybody were with their own groups. While i was roaming in the hostel everybody were looking at me and were discussing something among the groups. I wanted to know that what they are discussing but i couldn't ask.
      I was sitting in my room after dinner. I was unable to sleep because that place was new for me and i was not feeling well so many questions were going on in my mind i wanted their answers but no one was there to answer me. at that time 1 senior came in my room and told me that 3 others are calling you so you have to come. There were total 3 rooms 1st was mine and then there was a toilet after toilet at the left side there was one room and at the right side there was another room. That senior took me to the right side and sat on the bed. All the 4 were sitting on the bed like a king. and they told me to stand in front of them like i stand in front of the teacher.
    i stood. they started introducing themselves "hi, i am karan doing BBA 3rd year."
"me amay hun aur BBA kar raha hun 2nd year me hun." "i am jeet doing BCA3rd year." "i am rakesh MCA 3rd year." i was quiet.
karan:- "hamne yaaha pe kuch rules banaye hai jo tumhe follow karne hai. rule no 1 yaaha pe sab log unke seniors ko respect dete hai. to muze bhi aise lagta hai ke mere junior muze respect de, to aaj se tum hame respect doge. aur agar hame bulana hai to bhaiya kehke bulaoge. rule no 2 hamari har baat manoge." i nodded.
karan :- "senior ko ye jaanna jaruri hai ki uska junior kaisa hai...?? uski level of understanding kya hai...?? to uske liye ham tumhara intro lenge, jisme tumhe batana hai tumhara naam, parents ka naam, parents kya karte hai, 10th me kitne marks aaye, 12th me kitne marks aaye aur kaha rehte ho. ya to sab kuch hindi me bolna hai ya to sab kuch english me bolna hai. agr bolte waqt kuch gadbad hui to flush karna hai."
i asked "ye flush kya hota hai..?"
karan:- "toilet me jaa aur jo flush ka button hai wo daba, uske baad jo awaj aayegi waise aavaj nikalni hai."
i said "ok."
karan:-"tumhe jitna time chahiye prepare karne ke liye utna le lo par kuch galti hui to flush karna padega, ab jao apne room me aur prepare hone ke baad aajao."
             i left that room and came into my room. I was scared now what to do..?? i got what those senior were discussing, they were planning for this it means after facing these 4. I have to face lot more. I was alone there so i had no choice. I also thought to ran away, let them wait, they will wait and then sleep but where should i go...? they will find me in college............ I started preparing for that. When i thought i have done then i went in that room.
karan:- "ho gaya preparation. abhi start karo."
I :- "my name is gaurav save. ummmmmmm"
karan :- "flush"
I :- "flush"
karan :- "aise nai. flush karne ke baad jaise awaj ati hai waise nikalo"
I :- "sssshhhhhhhhhh"
karan :- "firse shuru karo"
I :- "my name is aaaaaaaammmmmm"
it was happening because of fear. After 3-4 attempts i done with it. after that they started asking me silly questions. At 3am this introduction section ended. I went to sleep.
           I would like to tell you my seniors you shown me your standards, you shown me from which background you belongs to. You called yourself as a senior, what you have done for your juniors..?? any productive work...?? or any thing which can help the juniors..? you are senior or a beggar...?? you are asking for respect..?? respect is not like you will ask and you will get, respect is something which you have to earn. Respect is not given by brain it is given by heart. If you want a respect then first give the respect. You are older than me is it reason to give you respect...??? tell me what you have done till now from the day you born...??? anything that you can tell proudly..?? you have done anything that your parents can feel proud on you..??? you have done anything for this nation, for this state, for this city, for your family...?? no. then why should i respect you...??
          I am telling those seniors who are acting like a king and treating their juniors as a slave. You do ragging to prove yourself as senior you show your powers to your juniors. why...???
just because your seniors treated you like this..?? so what...?? you can break this chain. you can bring the change. If you are ill-treating to your juniors and telling them to also ill-treat their juniors. Then you are promoting the ragging. You are not doing any qualitative work.
         so i want to tell you people if you are a senior then please don't act like a boss with your juniors, don't demotivate him/her, never go to prove yourself more powerful because you will never know how he/she will suffer. there are so many students who committed suicide because of ragging, torture. and the reason is you. Today its someone else but tomorrow can be you. So please stop doing this and bring the revolution.